Constant Thinker. Exactly my point!!! If I had actually USED cocaine myself, as long as 30 days later ( or maybe even longer? they don't know exactly how much longer) the metabolites would have show up in my hair test. obviously, when my hair test came back negative for the metabolites, it established at least for the 90 days prior to my doctors urine test that I was not a user, however, I may have been subjected to it by way of secondary exposure. You would think, especially at my own expense that would have been sufficient proof to my doctor of 3 1/2 years+ that I didn't break my contract with her, and I can't be held responsible for someone else's use. Granted, one might argue that well why were they in your house smoking cocaine in the first place? Simple! My son and his gf lied to me about it and hid behind their locked doors. Right now I think I know more about cocaine and it's metabolites, which still isn't nothing really, than I ever wanted to know about it!! I know his use has literally destroyed my life, as well as his since he's sitting in jail, and facing like 30 years behind all this. I should probably be thanking God that they didn't take my home in the raid, since it was my home after all they were doing this in. So, do I deserve to lose my pain management because he lied to me? or because I am plainly stupid when it comes to drugs and couldn't smell it or something? None the less, I am still cut off, and I have to believe at this point, 4 doctors later that they must have some kind of inter office type correspondance among pain treatment doctors that would maybe??? be a do not treat? or drug seeker? or doctor shopper? type list they can refer to if a doctor would choose to put someone's name on that list. No, I am not thinking conspiracy here, as that would make me crazy or paranoid. But come on? 3 doctors and 1 total quack that writes for every drug addict I know tells me that they won't treat me? and they won't offer any explanation? well I don't know but it sure has me wondering what is going on. Not to mention her complete and total refusal to accept the hair test as positive proof that I was not a user, and was inadvertently subjected to it through my son?
Mitch.... I am sitting here, in pain, which is not going to get better, and will only get worse obviously since I'm not fixed, nor can I ever be for my herniations in my neck and back, or for the surgical blunders over the past 4 years that created the mess in my abdomen that I live with, or the constant tearing of tissue where new tissue tears are occuring from the 2 botched hernioplasties, and 6 debridments of the abdomen that ensued. I'm not better nor will I ever be from the synercid that they administered to me to combat MRSA, that failed vancomycin that they had to treat me with since nothing else would work. A drug I might add that has accelerated FDA approval because it is not clinically tried and tested and they don't even begin to understand all the side effects of the drug. Or how about the diseased liver from the synercid that is probably even as we speak getting worse due to the handfulls of aspirins that I am now taking every few hours to try to deal with pain without benefit of pain meds? I guess, I wonder too how I can be considered that I failed for cocaine with a negative hair test for cocaine metabolites. But more than that right now, I wonder how a doctor that went through all this with me for the past 3 1/2 years can live with herself knowing she cut me off my pain medications, knowing that I tested negative for the cocaine metabolites. I swear I am trying so hard to keep fighting to find a doctor, even though I keep getting turned down without explanation. I think I'm fighting a losing battle now at this point though and I'm running out of options and avenues. I just thought maybe here where people actually knew science, and biology and chemical/biology I could get some answers or at least in touch with someone who would have those answers for me. Thanks, Laura
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